Mar'26

Well, this was nice. I was a naive young boy with hope in his eyes and passion in his heart. 5 years later, I am still that. Nothing's changed, except the kilos gained, the change in surroundings, and the fact that I have a JOB now (what? crazy right). How I've been? To put it bluntly, I failed, I failed hard. And it bugs me how this failure has become so central to my life. So many ifs and buts, if only I had worked hard, if only I didn't waste time, then and now and always, maybe this wouldn't have happened. And yet, there've been 4 attempts at this and I still feel like I've got one more in me. I was on the verge of quitting but my guy R brought me back, wiped the muck off my lenses and showed me the light. There's a reason I've wanted this, a reason for why I thought this blog would be a good idea, and I don't think I'm ready to let that all go. This journey needs a conclusion, regardless of the destination. I don't want to think much about the outcome anymore, rather enjoy the process, one last time.

So here it is, today, on the last day of financial year 2025, I am ready to rewrite a sad tale of laziness, procrastination and what has shaped my identity as it stands today. Are the same vices going to bother me like they have in the last 5 years? Will I be bogged down  by the same fears of failure and give into procrastination? Will the allusions to my potential ever materialize? Time flies by, we'll know very, very soon.

I want to put it out there that I don't care if I fail. This time around, it's more important to me that I'm honest in my efforts and committing to repetition. If  I do that, I'll have gained something very important.

Here's a cool song just because: